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clothes wishlist // teacher!

As literally no-one knows because I  haven’t said anything about it here, I’ve applied to study as a teacher. No answer yet, but that hasn’t stopped me from thinking and hoping.

There are a variety of reasons why I want to be a teacher and what I am excited about should I be given the opportunity to become one, but this is not the post for that. One of the (admittedly most shallow) reasons why I am excited about becoming a teacher is the thought that I can basically wear really cool stuff to class. So this is a wishlist of the clothes I would like to get if I’m blessed enough to be able to become a teacher (and also stumble unexpectedly into a huge sum of money).

Note: I just had the incredibly morbid thought that if I somehow died horribly while studying to become a teacher, this wishlist might become a tragic symbol of lost hope and unfulfilled youthful ambition. If that does happen, I’d just like everyone to know that I probably died pretty happy and this is meant to be a very cheerful post, and will remain so even if I die halfway.

That aside, my wishlist.

1) ‘Jasmina’ Sage Herringbone Fox Print Dress


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For some reason, I feel like this style of dress really has the “teacher vibes”. Also, I think teachers should dress interestingly because to be honest, I really liked it when a teacher had on an interesting outfit. This one is really cute. Also, foxes. C’mon.

2) Tiffany’ Dark Red Collared Wiggle Dress

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Again, I’m just really excited about assembling a work wardrobe and being that one really well-dressed teacher that never looks stressed.

3) Vintage Cap Sleeve Swing Dress

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I would be the most retro teacher ever.

4) ‘Paulette’ Red Check Pinafore Dress

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This doesn’t come with the blouse, but I do like this vibe.

5) ‘Matilda’ Green Gnome Print Shirt Dress

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If I got excited about foxes, you’d better believe I’m going to get excited about gnomes.

6) ‘Kasha’ Black Kingfisher Print Tea Dress

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K-I-N-G-F-I-S-H-E-R-S. can you tell I like prints

7) ‘Kody’ Mauve Dog Print Tea Dress

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…at this point, I might as well just buy everything on the website.

8) ‘Audrey’ Yellow Alice In Wonderland Print Swing Dress

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Yep. I like fit-and-flare.

9) ‘Audrey’ Pale Blue Mercat Print Swing Dress

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So… basically, same dress, different pattern.

millennial pink

“this night is about us – this month, this lifetime”

Melody Chen

we sip vodka sunrises at midnight
you are one-hundred-and-twenty-two days from 18
and i, forty-seven
men pass and whistle at our cling-wrap skirts
and i have never felt more like a woman

you grab my hand and we sprint through the city
through red lights and intersections
baby giraffes in 12cm stilettos
it is so pretty to have a laugh that tastes like candy-floss
looks as unicorn as our frappuccinos

this night is about us – this month, this lifetime
it is an art you know, to wrap things around our fingers
even when are hands are full – darling,
we are so good at making our business everyone else’s concerns
the world at our feet, still learning how to kneel

everything is pastel now, soft of hue
the world bruises our rose-petal skin
with shades too vivid, so we close our eyes
build exposed brick walls and keep this…

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one of those things I can’t wrap my head around is the miracle of us being alive.

it’s such an incredible fact that I can breathe, that my blood circulates around my body, that every little cog in my system is whirring to make sure that I can continue to function.

every little living thing down to the smallest bacteria is such an intense red miracle.

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
Dylan Thomas

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

There’s A Long, Long Trail

Nights are growing very lonely,
Days are very long;
I’m a-growing weary only
List’ning for your song.
Old remembrances are thronging
Thro’ my memory.
Till it seems the world is full of dreams
Just to call you back to me.

There’s a long, long trail a-winding
Into the land of my dreams,
Where the nightingales are singing
And a white moon beams:
There’s a long, long night of waiting
Until my dreams all come true;
Till the day when I’ll be going down
That long, long trail with you.

All night long I hear you calling,
Calling sweet and low;
Seem to hear your footsteps falling,
Ev’ry where I go.
Tho’ the road between us stretches
Many a weary mile.
I forget that you’re not with me yet,
When I think I see you smile.

There’s a long, long trail a-winding
Into the land of my dreams,
Where the nightingales are singing
And a white moon beams:
There’s a long, long night of waiting
Until my dreams all come true;
Till the day when I’ll be going down
That long, long trail with you.

There’s something about the simplicity of this song that breaks my heart. Even more terrible when you think of the soldiers who sung this around the campfire and meant every word.

my ideal harry potter game


So recently, I’ve been on this app called Harry Potter: Hogwarts Mystery.

Screenshot of my flying lesson with Madam Hooch.

So far, it really hasn’t been terrible. In fact, there’s some cool aspects of it (learning wand movements, picking up random bits of trivia from other characters’ dialogues) and a fairly engaging storyline, but sadly, it wasn’t what I expected, either. I really like the graphics and the fact that you can create a personalised avatar, plus the quests are usually quite interesting. Also, the fact that you can sometimes find ways to interact with background objects in the environment is pretty cute. I appreciate that they put a lot of effort into creating this whole thing, and since it’s only a Beta version for now I’m sure a lot of improvements will be made.

Honestly these little pop quizzes that come up are so stressful??

Its main drawback (and probably main moneymaking point) is that it requires you to spend energy to complete tasks. I’m sure a lot of us are familiar with that style of game. Complete just 1 quest and you’ll be totally drained, meaning you’re basically powerless to take any other meaningful action for a long time after. Currently my energy replenishes at a rate of 0.25 units/min (meaning it takes 4 min to replenish 1 full unit), so you can imagine the wait time to get just 10 units back. And I’m sorry, but even with my current lifestyle (unemployed and doing nothing but waiting for the results of my Uni applications) I just don’t have the time or patience to wander around a digital castle for hours. Honestly, that’s the most off-putting bit of an otherwise pretty good game.

Meet Roan! In a very ideal world, this is me! I ended up going with Slytherin because it’s my Pottermore house, although I’ve always wished I was a Ravenclaw.

Unfortunately, however, I haven’t yet come across a Harry Potter game on either the computer or the phone (which are the only two platforms I have to access games on) that really tickles my fancy.

Actually, scratch that. I did, years ago, when Pottermore was still in its original form. Back when you could chat with your fellow housemates, get points for your house, buy a pet, duel, collect ingredients to brew potions, kind of attend lessons… that was as close to my ideal as I have ever gotten.

My current Patronus and wand.
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Love how every wood is important and special in some way. I think I read through the entire “compendium” (I guess you could call it) of wand woods in one very long sitting.

I guess J.K. Rowling had a good reason for revamping it so much, and yes, the whole thing with the Patronus and Ilvermorny houses is cool, but I really miss that feeling of actually being an active student of Hogwarts. 

My ideal Harry Potter game is something of a cross between the old Pottermore, the current Hogwarts Mystery and- now hear me out– Yandere Simulator.

I would love to be able to create a personalised avatar complete with name, which is something we couldn’t do on old Pottermore. Instead of a point-and-click style adventure, I’d like to be able to wander around in first person perspective, collecting items and speaking to NPCs. Am I just describing every first person adventure game at this point

I also really liked being able to visit Diagon Alley and purchase all my school supplies, including a pet (which I would like to name) and a wand. The wand quiz is brilliant, but if there were something afterwards that allowed us to wave the wand around that would be really cool.

After being assigned to our houses via Sorting Hat, I’d love to be able to chat with other players, perhaps in the Common Room. Having a bed and bedside drawer to store items we find could be cool too. Also, a common notice board on which one could pin notices or pictures would be cool.

I would also like to not see the usual troupe of “Oh, Snape hates me I am special student blah blah” because it’s just everywhere. I think a more refreshing storyline would be that you come into the school as a normal student, then distinguish yourself by the actions you take throughout the school years (which seems to be the way Hogwarts Mystery is set up). If there was an option to choose whether you were from a wizarding family or a Muggle family at the start, that could somehow affect the way the game went, who you met, what you learnt etc.

I’d also like to be able to join clubs, especially if they could make the Duelling Club a thing again. Students could duel either against the computers or other players and level up their skills/earn House Points from there. As one goes through the game and collects spells, the duelling could be arranged such that each wizard has to recall and draw certain wand movements on the screen to cast the spell. The greater the difficulty, the more complicated the wand movement. There could be different levels of duelling:

  1. Beginner
    Player can simply click on the names of spells to cast them.
  2. Advanced
    Player must make the wand movements from memory of with the help of an encyclopedia which they can refer to if they have time during the duel.

I’m pretty sure some kind of duelling gaming subculture would develop if this were a thing, with actual world championships and such.

If the library could have digital copies of the textbooks mentioned in the series, that would be a dream come true (well, they could at least have abridged versions). Students could choose to study and take tests to boost certain skills they have or their reputation with teachers. This could be a way of allowing a student to develop a “talent” for certain subjects, which could be useful as the game progresses and also affect the way the game progresses.

Speaking of “reputation”, this is why I mentioned Yandere Simulator which has a similar mechanic. The way a player’s story unfolds could be affected by their “standing” in the school, which teachers like them, which students like them, and which people don’t.

That’s probably most of what I wanted to say, and it’s 0126 right now, so goodnight!

EDIT: Also if students were each given a personalisable notebook at the start where entries appeared whenever the student witnessed something happening/did something important (Outlast camcorder style) it would be a good way of injecting both trivia and essential information into the game.